Here is a new insight from our old friend, WeakDave:
I want to be astonished/captivated, by You, Lord, today, instead of being astonished/captivated by human achievement: by Others [or] by my own.
I need intervention from on High, to be different. I want to be different, but I find myself unable to change myself.
Thank You for my inability. If I were able, I wouldn’t need You. And my flesh would love that. My flesh delights in independence, strength, confidence, discernment, so that I end up judge/discerner of all; Leaning on my own understanding.
–StrongDave, needing prayer to embrace being WeakDave, dependent, childlike, clueless, with a Jesus-humility and a Jesus-love that non-believers find compelling, so they will want what he has.